Nobody really knows about me. I have
told them about Jay, my beautiful girlfriend. She used to be my best friend. I
believe in true love but I never truly believe in loyalty. Loyalty makes people
afraid to try something new. Loyalty is only for someone who shallow minded.
Loyalty makes you hypocrite. You try to lie to yourself to be faithful while
your mind still thinking about the girl you saw last night and how bad you want
her. For me, that’s hypocrite.
I have
been here for almost 10 years. I’ve moved to Kuala Lumpur because I want to
change every part of my life. Now here I am, in one of the popular club in
Kuala Lumpur. I got Volkswagen Polo outside the club, which I bought 3 years
ago.
Everyday
I spent most of my time with Jay. Jay never talks about love. She likes to go
with the flow. If it happens then let it happens. That’s what I like about her.
I try to fit my 24 hours spending time with all my girlfriend. Besides Jay, I have
Linda and Qila. I’m not being greedy but greedy is good for today’s world. If
you’re not being greedy, you will be left out. Grab everything you can have
while you can. I have been told that only wise man can control many girls at
the same time. Yes, true. I am that guy.
“Would
you like to dance with me, Jay?”
“Of
course, dear.” Jay replied.
We
dance, drinking cheap beer and spent all of our night with laughing just to
enjoy ourselves. We go out from that club at 3 in the morning.
“Jay,
why you never wants to talk about love?” I asked her.
“Ahh,
please. Not again. You know that I love you even when I’m not saying it. Love
is all about trust, right?”
“True
but sometimes, I need to express about lot of things with you.”
Though I
like it when Jay do not want to talk about love but it’s a man ego. I need
someone to share my feelings and my thoughts about love. That’s the reason why
I have Linda. Linda knows everything about love. When I’m sad, she’s the one
with me. When I’m all alone, she’s here to stay and make me feel good.
My BBM’s
ringing. It’s from Linda.
“Baby, where are you? I’m missing you so much. Where have you been all
day long?”
I
just leave it there. Jay won’t ask about that. She knows being jealous will
only make this relationship in a bad situation.
We
reached Jay’s home about 4.30am. I kissed her forehead and say goodbye. She
left me with a smile. I drove my car back home. I need to relax my mind after a
few bottles of cheap beer.
“Linda, I really miss you too dear. I need you. Lunch together tomorrow
okey?” I reply Linda’s BBM.
…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
Morning
is the best part of a day. I got up from bed and search for my phone. There’s 3
messages. One from my friend and the other 2 is from Linda. I open the message
from Linda.
“Babe, lunch at The Station okey? I want to eat Lambchop so badly dearL”
Another
message from her.
“Babe, pick me up at 12. My
office.”
I
go to shower and get ready for breakfast. This morning, I cook scramble egg.
The easiest recipe in the world. I like it though it’s simple.
The
clock shows 11.30am. I told Linda that I’ve been stuck in traffic jam. Kuala
Lumpur is the best place for traffic jam. She knows I’m not lying to her. First
rule of being a casanova-never tell small lies though you have the biggest lie-cheating
to your girlfriend. I hold on to this rule clearly.
Linda
likes to eat lambchop. In two weeks, there must be a day for lambchop. I just
follow what she wants. For me, that’s the second rule in being a casanova-don’t
follow what you want. Follow what she wants. We’re eating our lambchop while
talking about Linda’s new position in her office. She got promoted to be one of
the CEO. I’m proud of her.
Someone’s
look at me. I noticed that since I walked into this restaurant. Suddenly, I saw
someone walking towards me. It’s Qila.
“Who is
she?” Qila asked me.
I pick
some words to make a sentence but I failed.
“Who is
she? One of your mistress? Who is she? Tell me. I can take it.”
“Qila...it’s
not like what you think. She’s my best friend.” I’m answering politely.
“So, now
I’m your best friend?” Linda stood up.
“Oh,
come on Linda. Don’t be childish here.” I’m confused now.
“So… her
name is Linda. Hey Linda. Hear this. This guy right here is mine and always
will. He’s all mine. If you want to share every part of your pathetic life with
him, forget it. He’s in love with me. He just fooling around with you. I’ve
known him for 4 years. My family knows him. We’re going to get married end of
this year. Can you imagine that? How pathetic your life is to steal my
boyfriend. Only a bitch will do that. Stupid girl with a pathetic…..”
I
slapped her in the face. It’s my
mistake. Linda should not be treated this way. Tears start to grow in Linda’s
eyes. Oh my God, what have I done? Linda took her handbag and leave. I do not
hear any sound from Qila. Now, I felt guilty to Qila as well. My BBM’s ring.
It’s from Jay.
“I need you now. My father is sick. Heart attack. I’m at IJN right now.
Quick baby.”
“Qila...i’m
sorry. It’s my fault. I have to go. I never told you about marriage. Not at
all. As far as I know you, lying is your best part. It’s over. Sorry.”
I ran as
fast as I could to my car. I drove it with speed. Jay has been so important for
me lately. I don’t know why. Everything about her makes me goosebumps. My phone
ring. It’s Linda. I pick it up.
“Thank you for hurting me. I know there’s something wrong about you.
What goes around comes around. One day, you’ll feel what I feel.”
“Linda,
I’m loving you so much. I’m…..”
She hang
up the phone. I guess that’s goodbye for me. Now, I only have Jay. I can’t make
the same mistakes. That’s for sure.
I drove
my car so fast. I want to reach Institut Jantung Negara as
fast as I could. Jay’s calling me. I pick it up.
“Baby, where are you?” Jay’s crying while talking to me.
“I’m on
my way, Jay. I love you. Is your fath……”
Suddenly, there’s a big truck in
front of me. I don’t know why I couldn’t see it before. Everything happens so
fast. I try to avoid but it’s too late.
I try to
open my eyes. I don’t know where I am but I know I’m still in my car. I can’t
feel my body. Every part of it is in pain. I’m losing my breath. I grab my phone,
which is near to me. Jay is still on the line. Before I take my last breath,
with all energy I have left, I’m dying to let her know one thing…
“Jay,
I’m sorry. I love you baby. Remember that.”
Jay
screams.
MORAL OF THE STORY: APPRECIATE THE ONE YOU HAVE NOW CAUSE MAYBE, JUST MAYBE, YOU WONT GET ANYONE BETTER THAN THEM.
P.S: PA, I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HURT INSIDE BUT TRUST ME, YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG. DON'T LOSE FAITH IN YOURSELF. I'M HERE IF YOU NEED ME. ILY.
